I know it's been a couple months since I last updated you on the adoption. I've been holding off in hopes of having better news. Unfortunately I do not. I feel like a piece of my heart was crushed yesterday.
Over the past two months Daniel and I have been trying to go a different route in the adoption world. I cannot give detailed specifics but I can share some information with you. It was brought to my attention at the first of January that a brother and sister would be put up for adoption. I personally know these kids. They are some of the sweetest most precious kids I know. Their smile is contagious. Daniel and I talked about the possibility of adopting them. From the beginning of our adoption journey we talked about our main goal was to give a child a loving home where they feel safe and we can give them everything they could ever need to know God, succeed in life and know what it is like to be loved. We knew that if there was a chance to get these kids we were all in. We prayed daily about these children. I immediately started calling everyone I could at DHS to get information on these kids and to ask what steps we needed to take. I called every week and sometimes more than once a week. I kept getting the runaround. It took three weeks for someone to call me back from DHS and actually give me some answers. I was told NO, that we could not adopt them because we did not know them prior to the circumstances. Of course the lady I spoke with is the same lady we had previously met with when we first started looking into adoption. She had a negative attitude then and still does today plus she was rude. She is one of the many reasons we chose private adoption. I called our agency and they started working right away to see if there was anything they could do to help us. They updated our home study so that it would reflect that we were willing to take siblings and older children. They enrolled us in a 27 hour class with DHS that we completed last Saturday. At the first of February our agency turned over all our paperwork to DHS on behalf of these kids. Daniel and I wrote a letter on behalf of the children in hopes that it would make a difference. For the next few weeks we waited for DHS to make a decision on a family for these kids. We talked about the "what if's" and all our dreams for these two precious children. We had a pretty good feeling about getting these kids because of the relationship I had with the kids and that was one thing that the teachers from the DHS classes kept referring back to. Our agency stayed in contact with DHS and kept us updated. Yesterday afternoon we received a phone call from our agency saying that DHS went with a different family for the kids. God has perfect timing for these things, I was not at work when we received the phone call, I was with Daniel. I'm very thankful for that because I would not have made it through the rest of the day at school.
So now what? Where do we go from here? What do we do now?
We pray that these children adjust well to their new family and never forget them. They will always have a special place in our hearts. We continue to have our agency show our profile to birth moms. We continue to wait. We continue to keep our faith with God. We continue to make each other laugh every day. We continue to love one another. We continue to be there for each other.
